Monday, August 20, 2012

The Monday Muse

Andy went to Dallas for a quick "boys will be boys" weekend, and I stayed home with the kiddos.
I had been looking forward to this weekend for a while.....for one, I knew that Andy needed time away just like the rest of us (thank you for Vegas), but two, sometimes it's just kind of nice to run the ship by yourself once in a while, right?

The ship sank.

Holy cow.  I had one of the worst weekends in my history of being a parent.
I stopped counting the number of parenting fouls on Friday, and just held my breath until Sunday at 5pm when Andy walked in the door and I promptly walked out (I did have a photo session to get to, but truth be told, I probably would have walked out anyways).

Please tell me I am not the only one that has those out of body experiences of bad parenting.
Did I just yell at my two year old to "SHUT UP"??!!  Um, yes.
Did I spank my four year old a little two hard just because for the love of God, she did not listen to me for the umpteenth time???

Did I shed tears over my failure as a parent and have a few "woe as me" moments....this is my only job, why do I suck so bad at it?????

I most certainly did.

Thank goodness today was a new day.
It's amazing what two hours away will do for my frame of mind.
I got home from my photo session last night and WANTED to hug my kids again.
Today I didn't totally suck as a parent.

In the midst of a trying week, there were a few funny moments that made me laugh, so we will focus on that.

1.  On the way to swim lessons on Thursday, as we approached, I heard Addison say,
"Look Graham!  The gas station!  That's the gas station daddy works at!!".
At least the girl may be loyal to Shell.

2. On Saturday night, after my most un-stellar day at parenting, I crashed on the couch and finally caught up on my DVR of  Glee...Graduation, from MAY.
And I bawled through the last 20 minutes of it.
Like the ugly, can't breathe, cry.
I wasn't even that attached to Glee. 
Was I upset that I never chased my dreams on Broadway as Finn pushed Rachel to do?
Those that have heard me sing know better, but I still can't figure out what got to me so bad.
I did make Addison lip sync the Glee version of "Defying Gravity" with me today....if you can't have Broadway, you can have a moment with your four year old.

3. I had a photo session last weekend of a family visiting from Texas with 6 adults and 6 kids five and under.  And I had an assistant, thanks to my parents who were in town for a few days, I employed my husband who works camera bag for free.
And poses for light shots.

and was such a good sport, and took his job very seriously.
Thank you babe for always making me smile when the going gets tough.
Love you.


Shannon K. said...

You are NOT alone! I have told my kids to shut up multiple times this summer and even asked my daughter if she had a brain. Uggh...not my finest moments FOR SURE. Thank you for airing your "dirty laundry" Makes this failing mama feel not so alone! :D

stacy bostrom said...

sorry you had such a rough weekend!
glad a little creative outlet helped :)
and btw, i can't picture johan being such a sport about being an assistant, so way to go andy ;)